After the Teletubbies-garden I went again to the southern part. Some people of the talking circle community were planning to do a nice two day hike on which we would sleep for one night in one of the many abounded villages on Cyprus. Sounds awesome, right?
One day in advance I met one of them and she showed me a super nice beach where we stayed and had such a nice time together. I don’t know for sure what activities are appropriate in abounded ruins of little chapels but I guess some that are a lot of fun may be more inappropriate than others.
The next day it was raining so the hike got cancelled. Instead of the hike, we visited the land of one of the talking circle. It was a super nice and beautiful place in nature. With a lot of animals, plants and clever ideas. We talked, cooked, watched the stars and spent a wonderful time together.
I was feeling that the connection between me and her was super nice, harmonic and exciting and in the next weeks we met several times. I’d say that different things we experienced in our lives were pretty bounding and I loved her for being straight forward and some more private reasons.
But this time, I felt very clear that I would continue my travels at some point. Back in Bulgaria, I was feeling different about that. There I felt that even staying in Bulgaria would have been an option. What is more, I did not want to say something like “I’ll continue at some point. Could be tomorrow or in a year”. It felt unfair to me.
So I did my best to communicate that I’ll continue in about four weeks. I was in a mood of “experiencing everything as long as it lasts” and although she understood that, she did not feel like that. Joining me in my travels or continuing our relationship on Cyprus as long as I would stay there were no options for her as well and so we ended our relationship before it really had started. Although I felt so connected with her, I felt ok with that
